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how dee do and a yohoho too. =)
the twit, baby, geek and babysitter welcome you.

Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning

the pen's in, my hand ;;
ending unplanned,

I break tradition
sometimes my tries
are outside the line
we've been conditioned
to not make mistakes
but i can't live life that way
Staring at the blank page before you
open up the dirty window

let the sun illuminate the words that you ~~cannot~~ find
reaching for something in the distance
so close you can almost taste it .

release your inhabitions
feel the rain on your skin
no one else can feel it for you

only you can let it in
drench yourself in words unspoken
live your life with eyes wide open

today is where your book begins

the rest is still unwritten ;;

_____un writt en_____

[ The Girls ]

Name: TurGor BaBoons
Nicknames: twit, geek, baby, babysitter

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we are all normal human beings
the geek and babysitter are hardworking
the twit and baby and hoplessly slackers

[ The Memories ]

Wednesday, November 24, 2004 week's activities

who was that?geek? anyway why are you complaining geek..im the one getting a baby kit from u two AND i get a free christmas reindeer box from phoebe... sheesh. friends i have in this world.

ok the school's exterior actually looks alright now. other than the pink railings. however, the interior sucks like nobody's business.its so bright and disgusting tt i get giddy walking along the corridor.

anyway ive been shopping for two days and im still going shopping tomolo. argh. my feet are killing me. i hate shopping. ok i dont hate it tt much anymore. i just dont want to shop if i can avoid it... BUT on a brighter note i bought a mini jeans skirt and spag top!oooo.... of cos the spag top i will not wear out with...ill probably wear it under some revealing clothes... arent i conservative now.. the only "expose-able" article i wear are skirts. as in mini skirts... yep

prom rehearsals today.it was so stupid. imagine practising entry into the ballroom in the canteen... and they think we'll take 3 hrs to walk down the aisle? sheesh. and we had to walk like ladies. no slouching or folded arms and what not.but it was qt fun. mainly becos the pple arnd me were qt fun. we were happily chatting away. hahas. its actually becos we've had exams for so long so we keep sitting near each other (even to collect results oh and lets not forget assembly) so u see we now can "click" and chat away and do stupid things like crossing ur legs on the count of three.ive got to get my dress. and shoes. prom is nxt monday man...this is getting desperate. maybe i shld go OG like wat eeling said... hmmm...i dont think ill get a bag. wat a waste of money. i'll "bag-pool" with someone...

time for PAE. sheesh. i have 1.5 days to decide which JC to go to. ive finally decided to take triple science again. but shld i go RJC, NJC or VJC?? sigh. big big headache. pple please tell me ur choices.

5 days after o levels ended and tts abt all ive done.. hahas. anyway for memory's sake i shall have a portion on

O LEVELS UNFORGETTABLES

1) the fresh prawn-- imagine our shock when we walked into the bio lab for prac and we see a fresh prawn on a styrofoam board... " oh my toot.this is not happening. this is all wrong!where's the clitoria?" ok inside joke frm 2.5 sources. hahas.
2) thunderstorm-- it always rains when our paper starts.. and not just rain. there's lightning and thunder and its so annoying when u have essay writing subjects and u dont have time to cover ur ears when there's a flash of lightning so u wont get the impact of the thunder. argh. great omen isnt it.
3) the blackout-- once our HCL paper2 started, there was this really scary flash or lightning and clap of thunder and wld u believe it? a blackout. another fantastic omen. hahas. the tcher was so scared. she used a broom handle to turn off the switches (why?did u have to turn them off?) and then meekly asked if we were alright.. hahas. we all laughed.then thanks to her turning off the switches, we ended up with no lights and fans for rreally long even after the electrical supply was restored. but the OM patrolled arnd and told her she cld turn on the lights and she turned it on so furtively i tell u it was so funny. everytime lightning flashed, half the class instinctively covered their ears while continuing to read the paper. fascinating.
4) the sissy(gay) invilgilator-- the way he carried himself and spoke. hello... i think he may be gay. im sure a few pple agree with me.
5) the cheers-- at the end of os. everyone screaming and all as ive elaborated before. hahas. the relief.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 8:59 PM

pipe dreams

this could be my longest entry yet, though i didn't type most of it. this is a nice song, albeit a little old.. i think the album came out in 2003.

Pipe dreams-Travis
i read it all
every word
and i still don't understand a thing
what had you heard
what had you heard
was it love
was it take another walk in the dark
you'll never learn
i'd pray to god if there was heaven
but heaven seems so very far from here
and it all boils down to the same thing
just a yin and a yang or a couple of pipe dreams
and it all boils down to the same old pain
whether you win or you lose isn't gonna change a single thing
i stood in line and a thought crossed my mind
i had been dreaming but i didn't mind
i signed the line and the woman looked right through me
she didn't smile
i'd pray to god if there was heaven
but heaven seems so very far from here
and it all boils down to the same old thing
just a yin and a yang or a couple of pipe dreams
and it all boils down to the same old pain
whether you win or you lose isn't gonna change a single thing
i'd pray to god if there was heaven
but heaven seems so very far from here
and it all boils down to the same old thing
just a yin and a yang or a couple of pipe dreams
and it all boils down to the same old pain
whether you win or you lose isn't gonna change a single thing
and it all boils down to the same old fear
just a link in a chain just a puppet on a string
and it all boils down to the same old pain
whether you win or lose
whether you win or lose
whether you win or lose
whether you win or lose

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 7:46 PM

Sunday, November 21, 2004 baby kit 2

Call me forgetful but when did we ever insulted you, geek? Then again, you guys always say that i insult others without knowing it...Anyway, I've already thought of several nice (and cheap) stuff to go into the baby's kit. I've got this really pretty box that's yellow (her fav colour) and has reindeers all over it. So, now that we have gotten, or going to get, such a nice present for you, you and the geek better get a MUCH BETTER present for me instead of some lousy cross-stitching that 'makes me a more refined lady and i can do it over tea and chatting'! Argh!! Friends I have....

Good luck to you, lor. In the midst of our shopping, watching movies and slacking, we won't forget to send our best wishes.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:52 AM

Saturday, November 20, 2004 kits

why me... why do i have to have friends who take great delight in having me arnd just to insult me.. maybe the baby's karma or something has rubbed off on me.. the incredibles was incredibly funny! go watch it everyone.. hmm, baby kit.. twit, some1 gave the baby a princess kit for her birthday and she's been telling me and the babysitter of how lovely it is and so on and so forth.. so, me and the babysitter have decided to compile a baby kit for her! wanna join in?

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:49 AM

Friday, November 19, 2004 OVER

ITS OVER!!

i just thought tt i had to mention it somehow.after the paper i was grinning like an idiot and it didnt matter that i didnt noe wat fuels other than hydrocarbons can be used in cars or tt i totally screwed up my amath and lost my a1 even though i had such high hopes for it. cheers were breaking up from the whole block of classrooms (we're all in different levls u see). pple screaming. cheers of hip hip hurray! it was so exhilarating. and i was shaking my fist at phoebe and the geek's examiner since they have totally got to be the last class who finished. hahas. which means they had to endure all the cheers during the last minutes of exam but honestly i dont think anyone would care.

its all over. after almost three months (counting our mock exam) its finally over. this has got to be the longest exam period. and we have three months before we have to fret abt our results! can u imagine? after 10 subjects and 26 papers, (including oral) we're finally done. and i havent committed suicide or pulled out my hair or anything like tt. wohoo!yes ive screwed up many subjects due to my slacking and inertia when it comes to studying and hence i end up hardly studying for any subject at all but still. i'll think abt it in three months time :p

anyway twit, all the best! i pass u my luck!(or wat remains of it) u can have it for the time being. and anyway we've always been super last minute when it comes to studies and we've never had enough time to finish anything so that shldnt be anything new to u... im sure u'll do super well as usual. then ill feel like strangling u for being so darn brainy. oh and btw ure lucky. we've got to do organic chem and relative velocity too. and mind u we're in sec 4. ure in a grade equivalent to "jc".unfair isnt it?

SAYONARA BRAIN!! i'll see you again next year!

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:27 PM

Tuesday, November 16, 2004 os update

history was terrible.it is currently the third most traumatising paper. in second place is SS and Biology takes the cake for the most traumatising os paper of the year.i had 4 minutes to do the 2nd last soure based qn. i did the last already though. but tts not the pt. FOUR minutes, find someone to beat pathetic me. sigh. screwed. does anyone realise those two are my strongest two subjects?they are going down the drain drain drain! im doomed doomed doomed becos i always bank my whole life on those 2 subjects and english. SIGH. oh combined human and bio. why oh why?

studying physics. im just skimming through ten chaps and already so incredibly bored and restless. the only thing tt keeps me going is the thought of the geek with her huge glasses and goldfish eyes, craning over her books and mugging her eyeballs out. oh wait. shes probably done mugging. now she'll be furiously doing test papers. gasp. screams. doomed doomed doomed.

btw the school is hideous. i refuse to acknowledge it as my school anymore. its THE school. everyone was gaping in shock and disgust at the horrendous colours on our way to the examination rooms today. shouts of "is this supposed to be a conducive environment for os?" and "thank god we're leaving!" were rampant. bright pink corridor. i didnt noe whether to puke or stab my eyeballs out. then tt yellow staircase. honestly i love yellow but they just destroyed it. we look worse than a circus. sorry i mean IT looks worse than a circus. its just plain hideous. pple coming into our school will probably say "oh! wat pre-school is this? where are the clowns?"

thank goodness im leaving. thank you so much.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:36 PM

Monday, November 15, 2004 blubber

its one of those weekends. where i have not studied a thing and while trying very hard to make smthing enter my brain i glance at my hand lying on my book and i realise how fat i am. it doesnt help tt i have to eat at home every single day.my mom is stuffing me to the brim as usual.shes not a normal mother who hopes for a slim beautiful daughter. she wants a fat ass.(as in donkey) so she feeds and feeds me. and my high metabolism brother is not helping me by eating everything she gives him and never growing fat. its so annoying. hes rake thin.and me?a month of this treatment and im overweight. i feel like a bag of blubber, secreting oil and not fitting into my jeans. hello?my brother's pants are so loose tt when he lifts his shirt u can see the rim of his underwear.im so jealous.

just the other day i just had breakfast and my mom told us to go for brunch. "but i just had breakfast!" "nevermind. still can eat. lets go" so we go out for brunch. after stuffing myself we come back home and im so sleepy becomes im so full so i sleep. which accumulates more fats.then at 2pm my mom says lunch time!gasp. so i patiently explain tt brunch is breakfast and lunch together."but its two!so late already! come and eat" so im being forced to eat lunch.and when i eat very little my loving mom and brother say i want to be anorexic. hello??in my house i will never be anorexic. its impossible.ive just had three huge meals in a day and i havent even had dinner!!ohhh....i feel soooo fat. my family(this time including my father but no sis) were gobbling down chocolates yesterday after a way too filling lunch.and though i shldnt have eaten it but they were frm germany!my dad got them!and they didnt want to save it for later so it was eat it now or never.i am soooooo fat.im never going to fit into the gown. or worse. i will look like a hippo in a white tube. its terrible. especially since all my fats go to my arms, tummy and a bit on my thigh.ohhhh... this is terrible. pls ignore my fat state when u next see me... thank you.

anyway we had a 5 day holiday and tomolo o levels starts again.and as usual i havent touched a thing. im doomed. ive got 8 chapters of history to study. not to mention i havent touched my most dreaded sciences which are coming up. i need my physics/chem seeing how screwed bio was.oh and amath. AND HISTORY!! tt ones a must. its always been and it always will be. basically this week is the last leg of olevels and all of them are extrememly important for my results but ive not started a thing!!gasp. im DOOMED.but i cant concentrate!i cldnt even concentrate throughout the whole 2.5 hour emath paper. i started stoning after 1.5 hrs.sigh. why do i have the concentration of a flea??oh oh so much to do and im left with 6 hrs and 45 mins to midnight.

i still accept good lucks. thank you.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 4:55 PM

Wednesday, November 10, 2004 isabella

rite.ive definately calmed down after 2hrs of tv and 1 hour of chatting with issy!despite the ugly prawn and traumatising paper,i have conquered it and im ready (i hope and think) for my next "challenge" (obviously i hope it wont be a challenge to me but to others so i can get my a1 but tts not the pt).

anyway to address certain issues. "alyssa" pls stop pretending to be alyssa becos ure not and if u hate her so much or smthing to want to make her lose face in front of everyone then why would u want to impersonate her?its just...weird.and its not a very manly thing to do.not tt ure a man of course but yah.why dont u two have a nice confrontation. like the indonesian confrontation which did not end too nicely did it. ok im digressing. -hem hem- on to more serious issues.

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+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:42 PM

bio

geek u have no right to comment as u are a six pointer with 7 A1s.

biology.to summarise how bad it was i contemplated committing suicide half way during the exam. oh wait tts a lie.i was too desperate during the exam to think abt anything else. how could they do this to me. this bio paper is like 80000 times more difficult than the stupid 2002 paper.after the paper i was so traumatised i didnt noe whether to cry or not.i was numb. then i thought "stupid geek and her stupid theory abt stupid o levels being easier than stupid prelims".sigh. tts wat she said last night. os would be much easier looking at past yr papers. look how i turned out. i had to skip parts of every qn. i guessed half the paper and for the essay qn i couldnt do the 7marks gametes qn so i started crapping and guessing and repeating wat i said becos i didnt noe how to do it at all!!!!

how can they do this to me. this is BIOLOGY. i repeat BIOLOGY not chemistry or anything else. its the only science i ever depend on.if tts robbed away frm me i have no hope of anything else.my physics and chemistry are hopeless. its always been my bio for every single term and now... WHY?!?

sigh.im so tired.i give up.please spare me.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 6:34 PM

Sunday, November 07, 2004

the baby's being impossible again. losing 5 marks out of a an 80 mark paper is a sure a1.. pls dun listen to her when she says she's not gonna do well..

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 1:08 PM

Saturday, November 06, 2004 os update

i have the concentration of a flea.

argh!its 930pm and i havent done anything!!gasp.i spent one hour stoning at one page of my bio textbook. bad bad bad. considering i desperately want to do well for nxt week subjects-- emath paper 2 and bio. ESPECIALLY BIO. the geek and phoebe will noe how worked up i get when i dont get an a1 for bio. i depend on it. together with eng (i think i screwed tt up becos of my compo and letter) and combined humans (and i killed of my ss too!how is my history going to be able to pull it up?its impossible...8 mins for a 13 mark essay!?!)so u see my future looks bleak bright. all my dependable subjects are going down the drain.

ahem.let me stress myself up by analysing my current situation.
HCL-i think i shld pass it! yay!
English-oh letter and compo...sigh..especially tt lousy letter.
Social studies-i didnt memorise all the info on the proportion of the ministers and civil servants so i totally didnt noe wat to write and tt was the 12 mark essay. then after trying to crap smthing out for tt i only had 8 mins for my second 13 mark essay which i obviously did badly since there was no time. how can a person finish an essay in 8 mins!?!enuff said.
Lit-i was stoning through the paper one essay.it was too hot and i was too tired.and the unseen prose was screwed.but i didnt noe wat the poem was talking so ah well.im doomed for paper 1.paper 2 was all right.but i totally ruined it by my lousy last qn answer so... i think overall i'll get a B.-prays-
Emath paper 1- well i noe ive lost 3 marks to careless mistakes and 1 mark to this qn i didnt noe how to do..but i didnt compare ans u see so i dont noe how bad is it.
A math paper 1-i really dont noe. ive lost 4 marks(i think) to stupidity. and there's this 3 marks qn i cldnt do. sigh.

ok this is bad. so i shall read 1 bio chap tonight.i cant afford any more sucky papers.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 9:19 PM

Friday, November 05, 2004 ld

yeah!! its the weekend!finally. emath on monday, biology on wednesday and nothing else until another treacherous week the week after next with all the sciences. well at least one horrible week was over.thursday was a nightmare. exams started at 8am and ended at 6pm. anyway the papers were all right i guess. i wont do very well but probably can get a few a2 and b3s. oh except for chinese(as usual) and ss... those were horrible.

im taking a break today and not studying at all. (so wat else is new?) anyway i shall touch on the issue of syf.there is so much im feeling. disappointment, worry, hope, hate, disgust, disbelief. i dont know wat to feel. on one hand ive already given my word at the end of last year to come back and make sure ld gets a gold.after all we did fail. so badly. we let everyone down. we lowered our position in the school from dropping to nothing. but unbound proved there is hope. on the other hand we had mrs tian and ms jeya there.just the thought of the horse and rojerbot gloating abt how great they are, "oh look everybody. i took over for just one year and my talent has ensured MY cca a gold!im just such a capable horse!-swish tail-" it really makes me gag. sigh. and so a little selfish part of me hopes tt they wont get a gold so tt the horse would fail.

but tts just too selfish. mrs tian and ms jeya would be upset too. how could they not let more capable sec 3s in?they are in sec4 next year. this is their last chance. i heard the horse wants to focus on the "major things" not like last yr when we had so many events going on. well tts how the whole cca has something to do moron! now the sec 4s are stuck in between! they cant go to perth becos there have os and they arent in syf?do u want them to rot away?feel demoralised?hate ld?i dont noe wat to say to make them feel better. i cant say its alright becos its obviously not and everyone will be saying tt anyway. the nxt yr sec 2s will get another chance. and capable pple who have served ld shld be put in props even if they are not acting in syf!give them experience becos they deserve it!sigh.maybe the horse is capable we just have to give her a chance.but we have given her so many chances ever since she was a trainee LD teacher!she just shows us tt she sucks. and yes u noe we have technically graduated so we shldnt be nosing into her matters but hey our juniors are still in there. LD's reputation is still at stake! i rmb when i was in sec 1. pple would go "woah..ure in LD arh?" "ummm.... yes?hehehe?" "woah..." that was how great we were. how prominent. and honestly i can see why heng hates us so much. i mean when we dont like smthing or think tt smthing has to be done we tell it straight to her face. and even though we dont do proposals we have plans.and when we think watever she did was stupid we tell her it doesnt work. we arent little worker ants who build a shrine behind her and worship her every word. we are rebellious little brats (to make us sound bad).our reputaion is dropping. unbound helped bring it up a little but its not enough.ld is no longer the dynamic cca where all the cool pple go to and have tons of achievements which the school flaunts. we no longer have a teacher who fights for LD with all her might to make sure we get enough funds and recognition. but we have to make it tt.

and anyway i have juniors who really have nothing on their cca records and it would their last year there. even if i dont give a shit for the horse, i dont want them to be miserable.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 4:17 PM

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

caught up in the endless clatter of rush and following the footsteps of the bookwyrm(eating and regurgitating out everything in a more normal way), clustered in our cloisters, living the life of those in skyscrapers and the 22nd century and using technology that some had never even dreamed possible and still dun, what are we still seeking? fame, fortune beckons? pride in general? a life totally different from what u have now? the ability to prove, expect, choose? to see the old and welcome the new? that sounds like chinese new year.

in year 0, the sudden plunge of somewhere to nowhere must have been shocking.

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 7:02 PM