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the twit, baby, geek and babysitter welcome you.
Name: TurGor BaBoons
Nicknames: twit, geek, baby, babysitter
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we are all normal human beings
the geek and babysitter are hardworking
the twit and baby and hoplessly slackers
Sunday, October 31, 2004
please
please
trust a person like me to start sudying only 2 days before o levels... sigh. oh eeling must u really tell me all these before tomolo's HCL? i mean. sigh. i doubt i'll pass it either and i so dont want to fail it. i would be so thrilled to be able to see a c5 on tt certificate next year. but tts never going to happen. everything seems to be leaving my little brain. but then again it is HCL. since when has anything to do with HCL ever retained in my brain for more than a day or two.
dear lady luck,
pls guide me through os as u guided me through prelims. all the times when i only studied 1 or a few chapters and bet my entire life tt it wld come out, u made it happen. pls help me once more. please.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 8:04 PM
trust a person like me to start sudying only 2 days before o levels... sigh. oh eeling must u really tell me all these before tomolo's HCL? i mean. sigh. i doubt i'll pass it either and i so dont want to fail it. i would be so thrilled to be able to see a c5 on tt certificate next year. but tts never going to happen. everything seems to be leaving my little brain. but then again it is HCL. since when has anything to do with HCL ever retained in my brain for more than a day or two.
dear lady luck,
pls guide me through os as u guided me through prelims. all the times when i only studied 1 or a few chapters and bet my entire life tt it wld come out, u made it happen. pls help me once more. please.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 8:04 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Promise
So
should i return to trace the shadows of my chases
My steps will echo there from sand to stone
I
will never let my eyelids close on empty spaces
My dreams will fill the void with tales unknown
Know the mighty infinite obscures the far horizon
The whispered road i take will never bend
Alone
And will the wind return my story to its promise
Or will my story chase me to the end
Happy birthday baby!
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 9:35 AM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
bdae?
Friday, October 22, 2004
trauma
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Monday, October 18, 2004
survey
a math
Monday, October 11, 2004
dinner
Saturday, October 09, 2004
gollum
Friday, October 08, 2004
so many problems
this is going to be a sucky bdae. i can feel it in my bones. im actually dreading it.in fact i didnt even remember tomolo's my birthday until joceylnwished me happy bdae... i remeber my reaction.. "what? wat date is it today?" and everyone laughed. wats the point of growing one year older, one year towards getting amnesia, cancer and everything else? one year towards being put in a coffin and pushed into a furnace and burnt till all ur meat, flesh, muscles, fats and organs melt and you become ashes. this is going to be a horrible birthday which is saying a lot since ive never had a fantastic unforgettable bdae before. last year was alright. the most unexpected pple remembered my bdae and (well i dont really noe sadly or not,) not who i thought were my closer friends. it was qt sweet. no celebration or anything just some pple remembering tt i was born on tt day and they wished me happy bdae and gave me little gifts or notes. i thought tt was very sweet. i was touched.i guess tts abt the best bdae ive ever had. this year, with looming os and me not being thick-skinned and reminding everyone i meet tt my bdae was in a few days, i guess everyone forgot. ah well. there's nothing much to remember anyway. oh except meiyan.tt girl is brilliant. studies everyday, writes 8 page long letters, and yet never forgets anything it seems. hahas. oh and mr wong. oh and joceyln becos we have the same bdae so we always remember each others bdae. oh and huilin. hahas. oh and clara! yes and her cow gifts. well actually i am qt blessed arent i? i mean 5 isnt a lot but it counts. and my bdae is not even here yet. well so i guess this entry is so pointless then.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:16 PM
and so it begins
one word:traumatic. for more info, read huilin's gbk. i havent done anything today other than visit hcjc and rjc. rjc looks like a whole squatter settlement. wat a dump. how do pple live there? im glad they're moving. hcjc is nice but only abt 5 pple per class can take s papers so im definately not going there. i want my scholarship i tell u so i need my s paper. and my rgs frens are really convincing... plus kat is going there.. so now im torn btwn rjc and vjc(where many of my really nice friends sre going and i cant bare to part with them!!), both which did not have impressive open houses. oh wells. i really dont noe lah... if its rj then i have to get 8 pts and pass higher chinese and im still not studying so tts not very possible... sigh.
there's only one week left. so though it may be almost 12, i will read at least one chap of bio before i sleep. i must. so far, ive only done 2 a math papers and read chap 1 of physics- measurement of physical quantities. dont raise ur eye brows at me! i wanted to do smthing easy on the brain so i chose that. its a start... right?
who am i kidding?
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:25 PM
im not studying.
today i did nothing. not even one pathetic a/e math paper. why arent i studying?there's smthing wrong with me.please someone stress me out so that i will study. i dont want to lose my points. i mean i wldnt mind as long as i get below ten but i dont think ill be overjoyed if i lose my miracle points...sometimes i wish they didnt moderate e math, i mean well... with lesser points comes higher expectations frm my friends, my family and i noe i cant fulfil their high-flying expectations. i want to get into VJ so im aiming for a nine. then ill get 5 and i can get into science.
sigh. at the rate im going that seems but a far off dream. i'll probabaly get 18 points. the lowest in my whole class as usual. well. Catholic doesnt seem too bad...
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:59 PM
ooo.... i just went on epebble and i saw this pe/cca survey for the school. now i have no idea if they are refering to new or old cca tchers but anyway im thinking they refer to the new tchers and hence i absolutely refuse to take the survey for fear of getting into trouble with the horse or rojerbot.
Q:My CCA teacher knows me.
do horses know pple?
Q:My CCA teacher cares for me.
-snorts in disbelief-
Q:My CCA teachers care about the CCA programme.
well its their job isnt it?they just suck at running and planning the programmes tts all... nothing much..
Q:My CCA teacher motivates me to do well.
if u mean berating u right before ur farewell by telling u uve failed or telling u tt her ugly high cholestrol head "will be the first to roll, not urs" so u shld just focus ur role and nothing else becos rite now the acting is not up to scratch then yes. they are doing a fantastic job.
honestly this survey is perposterous.they shld thank me for being nice enough as to not put strongly disagree/disagree for all. but then again maybe i shld... -evil glint in eyes-
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:50 PM
why amath? why art thou defying me so? i hath placed high hopes in thou..and thou gives me 60/80 for the Nanyang girls' paper? i shld be getting 70/80 at this time.not a scraping a1. wat if i dont get a1 for amath for os? gasp.considering i just started studying for three hours today and only completed one measly a math paper. wat abt my other subjects?
rite. now after the moaning i shall give a bright happy entry since my cousins think im a depressed stressed out little girl. hahas. i cant help it, i only blog when im swimmming in emotion. anyway ive ony gone to vj open house. didnt have time to go nj... hmm..i think i am 80% swayed to vj becos its such a nice school and all my great normal friends are going there. i really dont want to lose any friends at this time. if only eeling wld go there..tt wld be great.. anyway i have also watched pearl harbour for the third time even though i shld have spent my time doing smthing meaningful like burning my books and drinking the ashes with water. its such a wonderful movie i tell u. even though josh hartnett no longer looks tt great after the third time watching it.but he still looks qt good.-nods head- and kate beckinsale is so beautiful and slim.the plot of the movie is also so sweet, touching, tragic, heart-wrenching, u get the point. did u watch the part where they tried to free the pple trapped in the boat and the trapped pple's hands were reaching out escape but they were trapped so they ended up drowning with their hands intertwined?it was so sad... and and... rite. im typing too much as usual.. but its a beautiful movie... so wholesome. hahas. oh did i mention tt huilin and talia are all excited abt the cute guys in vj?now much as i hate to admit it, they are right.the guys there are all average or above average... makes the school more appealing without nerds and geeks and pimply pple walking around like other i-shall-not-mention schools.anyway i shall be impartial and see rj and hcjc. i mean maybe my dad has a pt abt those schools..they are the unbeatable top 2 for a reason rite? -snorts in amazement-
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:45 PM
im typing out my english essay.im disgusted at myself. i mean its sooo.. simple.everyone has flowery essays and mine is a simple english straight forward essay which sounds retarded becos after practically every point i make i will state "hence, this proves that the equality of men and women is not paid mere lip service in Singapore" or smthing to that extent.i think ive been over-graded.sigh.. why cant i write nice flowery essays with a smattering of difficult words? limited vocab no doubt...how i ever got my marks is amazing.. the teachers must have been very tired.
anyway i must say tt my brother issue thing is exceedingly amusing. it is certainly a wonderful form of de-stressing entertainment.hahas. oh and claire can u believe i am soooo scatter-brained? i got so agitated until i realised...tt night.. as in...ok its qt hard to type without revealing too much.. but anyway after tt i realised what she meant... hahas.
ooo... i quote eeling's letter "i demand that we keep in contact till the very day our saggy boobs and cellulite clad butts will be thrown into angry flames since burial is really too space consuming" its so heartening reading it isnt it? makes you think about getting good supportive bras and lots of moisturiser.. i think it'll be very nice to have a nice little wrinkled friend to stutter to you while drinking a cup of milk(good for brittle bones) when ure half senile. we can have tea parties in wheel chairs and eat porridge since we'll have no teeth to chew. tt is if a friendship can last tt long... i dont even talk to my primary school friends anymore which is well... sad. ok except for karmun but shes in my cca so tts different.
sigh..have to teach my brother math tonight..does my mom realise tt o levels are coming and test papers are pouring in? why the unnecessary burden?he'd better do well for science... i spent my whole sunday tuitioning him... all my sweat, blood, saliva, brain cells, leisure time...
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 6:38 PM
im getting pissed from baseless accusations that are unfounded and without proof. many of you would noe tt i hate being accused of something that i did not do. which is happening. and this especially sucks becos prelims have just ended and ive just gotten back my results so i shld be happy and gearing up for a month of fruitful studying instead of immersing in trifle gossips. fine. too bad. now i shall have to research.and this sucks once again becos im in sec 4 and hence i dont have tt many sources anymore becos im supposed to have a great mind and discuss about ideas instead of pple!!rahh.
anyway, ok i noe some pple will kill me but i was thinking.. wat if i hadnt abandoned e math totally for the past 3 or more months. then i would have pushed it up to an A1 and.... -greedy glint in eyes- but im still happy... i was just thinking about the possiblity...... -slaps self silly- snap out of it xinling!! do it for os then!!! yes... yes.... smeagle will push for A1 in o levels then... heheheh.
-gollum potrayal-
this explains why im being bullied by a sec3 prefect. hello? im not all tt gullible... im being trained by the geek to be cunning, devious and sly.. soon i will be able to ignore and treat evil prefects like things tt dont exist, dao/be mean to my juniors even though i dont see why i shld be, jay walk across the road when there's a perfectly good traffic light a few steps away, hence putting my life at risk, and cut the queues of innocent little girls who have never done anything to hurt or offend me before in their life... these are just some of the aims of genevieve and one day i shall master these "skills".. wahahaha...
You're a unicorn. You're very pure and innocent.
Almost everyone loves you and you love almost
everyone. You may be naive to the point of
gullibility. You're pretty much incapable of
violence, the exception being when someone you
love is threatened. While your intentions are
nothing but good, some might call you a
"straight-edger." Your alignment is
EXTREMELY *good*.
What mythical beast are you?
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+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 1:09 AM
twit i'll try to look for his photo but since he's new i cant find his photo anywhere... soon i will.... hahas. but the geek doesnt like him anymore... she now likes this girl who she thinks is soooo pretty frm this show called yi(2) tian(1) tu(2) long(2) ji(4) personally i think the show is utterly stupid but she loves it... she watches any show with tt girl in it... i told her shes turning gay but oh well... she still likes her...i think its becos we teased her too much.. caused her rapid change in taste.
my tagboard is dominated by beings i dont even know if i know which says a lot abt my kind friends who don't tag!!! (except for karmun dear of course) im totally confused by the whatever is or isnt going on and mind you ive only not been blogging for a week or two becos i was busy 1)studying for higher chinese(which actually ended really long ago hahas) 2) grieving over my dismal performance during prelims even though i haven gotten back my paper 3) worrying abt results 4) fretting abt the low pts needed to enter these nice jcs 5) thinking tt ive got 18 pts which just puts me off blogging mood.
and now the results are all back and our L1R5 have been grandly revealed. i am relieved? shocked? surprised? esctatic? guilty? i dont really know what i feel actually.ok first allow me to clarify tt i am absolutely appreciative of my marks and i am absolutely thankful for it. but im sorry to say tt i have to moan so dont read the nxt paragraph if u do not wish to involve urself in my insecurities... just start reading frm the paragraph after this next one.
i dont think its fair tt i got what i got. pple studied really hard for their marks... they slogged day, night, weekday, weekend, earthly hour, unearthly hour and me?? ive been slacking. SLACKING. i mean i come home, sleep or read a storybook until its time for dinner, eat, bathe then i start studying frm abt 830-11pm. on a good day, frm 8-1130 and on a bad day frm 830-1030.so on an average i study wat 3 hours a day or less?and pple i noe study once they reach home, then take a short break for dinner and bathing then continue till midnight (the geek!! look at the geek!!) i always never manage to finish studying, (duh) and so i have to cramp as much as i can during assembly and during the 45 min break.so i go for the test and end up having to crap my way through some qns becos i have no idea wat it is.like ss and bio... i was guessing.. i looked at the figure of the spinal cord and i knew one of it was grey matter and one was white matter but becos i din read the chap at all i didnt noe which was which and where they were situated anyway. so i looked at the diagram and labelled the shaded one grey matter and the unshaded white part white matter and prayed it was right.and it was. and for ss i crapped out some warped theory abt how our forefathers with their "private sectors" contributed to the provision of healthcare since i didnt read the chap at all and i didnt know at all...i only knew the gov part..and somehow i got my L2 marks for it. so im stating once again tt im very grateful for my luck, crapping or whatever it is tts helping my grades but i feel guilty abt it..is it guilt? im not sure. its just uneasiness... like the twit said, just becos ure lucky once doesnt mean ull be lucky all the time.im afraid ill get my retribution during os... i mean my grades fluctuate A LOT.like one term good the nxt term bad then good and then bad, etc. so wat if os.... -slap- dont think of it xinling!!! dont!! i shall rmb wat karm said and just study hard..i just cant help feeling insecure... this isnt right. u reap wat u sow... the geek and phoebe and reaping wat they sow...i think im reaping too much and sowing too little... i mean... sigh... i dun think anyone will understand how troubled and mixed i feel...
rite so anyway i was thinking.... shld i go arts stream or science stream? i do well in arts but i love bio and i want to go into medicine or life science. tt requires bio and chem(my worst subject after higher chinese which emphasizes how bad it is) which is in the science stream. but i do so much better in my humanities and languages (ok mainly english..i bank my whole life on english for L1 actually...hahas.) and i like humanities as much as i love bio and life sciences its just tt i dont see any future in it. so im torn between my two loves. wat do you think? hmmm... i still think there's more of a future in the science stream... and should i continue taking triple science? and of course, the choice of JC. VJC or HCJC? if i go to VJC i'll have so many of my friends there..the school and principal seems so fun and i can take drama as my cca again. but its soooooo far. i live in the far west and its in the far east. across the island... is it worth spending hours travelling??HCJC on the other hand is very near my home...its a good school..seems fun too (not as fun as vj but its second most fun compared to the rest) but my brother is in it.as much as my mom says tts good i certainly dont think so... i mean...its weird. and my sis was from it to i mean can u imagine?a whole family of hwa chong-ers.ok maybe its my warped theory and all but oh wells..and im not confident abt being able to remain there after os...i mean wat with the retribution and all...and i wld hate to have to change schools. ahhh... dilema... suggestions?? thoughts?? anyone??
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:46 PM
x huilin
x karmun
x claire
x charlotte
x tiffany
x charmaine
x huishan
x beatrice
x pamela
x eddison
x gideon
x shi yun
x clara [KIDDO!]
x MEL
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