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Tuesday, September 21, 2004
tooo toooo
twit u dont noe how lucky u are having ur mock there in australia while we have to suffer with prelims here in spore. for one the pple are soooooo noisy. they say its the sec ones.. well it'd better be becos if it was the sec 3s they would get such a bad retribution next year.there's this terrible recorder playing bunch of sec 1 girls. i assure u they are tone death. they play these same 5 notes again and again and again. and they love playing it during thinking tests. like history when u have to recall so many facts.the recorder playing plus door slamming plus screaming can drive u nuts. i spend half the test reading the qn cos i cant get it into my head with all the noise -tooo tooo tooo- those stupid recorders.i wanted to dash out of class, shake my wrists at those awful inconsiderate freaks and go "shit u all!!!may u die a terrible death!!" or dash up to them, whack them on their head and stuff their recorders up their nose.but of course being civilsed and all i just sit in my place with my pen in my hand and mutter "dear lord please kill them" obviously such spiteful prayers are never answered. so on go the tone deaf freaks. and then there will always be someone screaming. i dont noe wat is wrong with our school. the girls have serious issues.scream scream scream.then hysterical laughter tt can be heard from the 4th storey.wen wen er ya my foot. and then every time it gets tooo noisy teri and i, being unfortunate enuff to be sitting by the door, will cover our ears in a deliberate effort to let mr wong noe we cant concentrate. and all tt man does is go 'tsk' dash out of class and stare down at the girls as if he has some super laser beam eye thing to shoot all those pple to death or smthing. and the geek will stare and stare at him trying to signal him to shut them up. but all he does is dash to the balcony(u see?? we're surrounded by noise) and clicks his fingers. as if they can hear him. ive given up willing him to go down and shut them up. i just stare at him sadly and go pathetic now. can u believe the p6s are having air con classrooms?clearly they hate our badge so much tt they wont even try to care abt our welfare. stupid school. useless really.
anyway i havent been sleeping tt much. ive switched to watching a lot of tv. more than ever. ive never watched so much tv before in my life. i only started studying for bio last night at 945pm so u can tell tt i didnt noe half the paper and was crapping out reasons and all. and my alveolus was terribly ugly. molly's going to give me half a mark i bet.
oh TWIT!!!! the geek countess likes this pe teacher in our school!! waahhaaha... its hilarious.but ive been teasing her so much every time he walks by her tt she claims tt she doesnt like him anymore. hahas. typical of the countess isnt it?
princess golden gem
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
sigh
jc senior? twit u sre still our age so i would hardly consider u as a senior really... hahas.
history was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad. im doomed. tts it. and here's the worst part. i studied. how often does anyone see me studying hard for history? i always depend on the geek and phoebe for summary and then crapped my way through the test. but no...... i just wouldnt read the bloody essay heading tt read before WW2 and went to happily tok abt china after WW2. and hear this, i predicted china would come out and memorised it. not just scan through and ask phoebe for a summary, memorised. does anyone feel my pain? i was so upset my nose bled so profusely just now. TWO out of three ESSAY questions on china came out. tell me where do u get luck like tt.but no... i wldnt do question 4 on china after WW2 and deng xiao ping's reforms and how Mao ruined china. hello? i even remember the pictures accompanying the facts on those to questions. oh wait. i always rmb the pics first..anyway i can list deng's reforms on the spot:administrative (streamline gov and remove pro-cultural revolution pple and extremists), pop control(to raise the pple's standard of living, no more than 1 policy), agricultural with a picture of two pple between the paragraphs on the second page of mao's reforms with the lady tending to the wheat and the man writing smthing(responsibility system. no more communes, etc), industrial(managerial resp. system, foreign investors, overseas chinese), others (education, ban on music lifted, pple allowed to worship,etc) see??i rmb every single reform and tt would have secured my 12 mark essay. as for the 13 mark essay on Mao, i wrote most of it except i did it for question 2 which was supposed to be before ww2!!why didnt i do question 4!?!??!? WHY!?!??!? why did i do question 2 and screw up my 25 essay marks becos of the bloody 13 mark essay in which i wrote abt after WW2 cos i didnt read the heading!!?we have gone through my levels and the highest i can get is 4 marks.four out of thirteen when im sure i could have gotten 10 marks if i did Q4.and mind u tts a diff btwn and a1 and fail.and dont say ive tried my best cos i didnt. i wld have tried my best if i did qn 4. and btw the secondary dont noe wat girls were so annoying. i want to unleash an evil curse on the bloody bimbos who screamed deliberately non stop during the storm. hello??do u all think the bloody thunder and the doors slamming is not noisy enough?why are u all screaming u bloody bimbos probably without looks? becos theres rain contaminating u?and cant u just scream once and get over it?it takes u half an hour to get over a slamming door!?and u cld tell it was a deliberate scream.it doesnt help tt im sitting by the bloody door. sigh. they totally helped me screw up source base becos i cldnt get the sources into my head with the commotion. there goes history. why?why why why? i guess i always took history for granted. all those times i got 10, 11 or even 12 upon thirteen for an essay..i never imagined i wld get 4. never. i loved history. its just one of the subjects i never really cared abt or paid attn to and yet did well enuff to be used in my L1R5 every term without fail.i reallly have to read my qns. it even happened in a math. i din read tt we had to find min area. tts minus two marks when i already had the value to calculate area. sigh. i dunno why i love screwing prelims and exams so much.kill me.i dont want to do this anymore.im going for physics prac tomolo, pick up the retort stand or glass block and smash it on my head hoping ill die of concussion or smthing.every time i study for smthing i dun do well.this sucks.oh and yes twit the prelims are counted. it determines where u go for the first three months remember?and u see ure lucky tt ure bright enough to not study and top ur class in chemistry for mid year.remember twit?i mean i noe ure expected to excel over there but please tt is like really good?and u get to go for free movies every week friend. we have to pay. anyway, sigh. it doesnt matter anymore does it.i have no more humanities to depend on. i mean i cant depend on lit. never could never will. i really shld get over it. still have wat 19 papers to go?sigh.
i studied i really did.
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Friday, September 10, 2004
ew
i deleted the bloody post on my schedule..its annoying to see how far behind i am every time i wish to de-stress. and why am i de-stressing when i havent been studying??tt shall be the seventh wonder of the world. anyway i was thinking..wat happens to a woman after tubal ligation?where do all the mature eggs go?do they fall back to the ovary against the action of the sweeping cilia?or do they form this massive disgusting clot at the end of the cut tube just like hair stuck in that drainage thing after u bathe?do they get menopause earlier?will the Graafian follicle develop?wat abt the corpus leutum?the egg yolk?will the uterine lining still break down?doesnt seem to have much sense to break down does it?then the poor woman will have no "warning"egg thing.would it decompose and be smeely?why doesnt the male just go for vasectomy instead so things wont be so confusing?oh wait but then wat will happen to the sperms?if they produce so many a day wont it form a clot or something?will the scrotum burst from an over-inhabitation of sperms?and so it ends up like the women without the uterine lining issue.
sorry i just read bio u see...excuse my somewhat RA entry. but u have to admit it is intriguing no?
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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
doom
ive not been following the stupid schedule at all!! (as usual) SIX DAYS TO PRELIMS xin ling!!! when are u going to snap out of lala land and start studying!! -slaps self silly-
doom
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
fantasies
rite genevieve. that was very short sweet and concise?? u are so lazy im telling u... u come to blog like once in 3 months and u cant even bare to type a relatively decent entry. tsk tsk...
rite. so anyway i have planned out my targets for prelims. Now i want below 15 pts so i need A1 for English, A1 for Biology, A2 for A maths, A2 for chinese, A2 for humanities, and A2 for either physics or the other humanities. it seems pretty impossible but of course im leaving room for some subjects to drop by a grade or two so in the end i'll get abt 14 points. i hope. yes. please stress me out whenever u see me. stress me till i start crying, that would be good. at least ill start studying like crap for that day.
oh Kelly clarkson's break away is so good i tell u... it encompasses all that i feel in one song... its just like life got cold.. it totally related to us when we were studying last year... remember?? with lorraine and all even though shes practically non-existant now. oh and dido's white flag... hahas. still strikes fear in me when i hear it... ok most pple wont get it but phoebe genevieve and lorraine would so nevermind. and genenvieve dun deny it, u freaked out once too. :p.
anyway this song is so good. the first stanza is like how we used to be so happy and carefree, how we could go to the swing to "de-stress".and how the four of us would just go to someone's house to sew our fishes while others went to orchard road. and we would be so happy just reading and swimming and how we would day dream and curse the teachers we hated. how lorraine and i had dreams to not get married, set up a clinic or smthing tt would make us big bucks, own two houses, how one house would be a penthouse at the highest condo at orchard road with a sitting room where the whole wall facing the scenes of orchard road would be glass so that we could enjoy the scenary at night. how we would have a farm house in australia as our hoilday resort. hahas and we invited phoebe to stay with us even though we thought that she would get married but we so didnt invite the geek (genevieve) becos she would happily marry the first guy who goes out with her and have kids. how me and lorraine wanted to get break away frm spore's education system while phoebe and the geek thought it was alright..we wanted to go overseas to study.(well lorraine has gone and i still want to go) oh and the "swinging of revolving doors" and not knowing know where it takes me part is like how i decided to take three pure in sec 2 only becos i didnt noe wat i wanted to be but i wanted to keep my options open. how i regretted it so much at first cos three purers were discriminated against by so many pple in the level and i cldnt go with my old friends. how i didnt think i fit in.(ooo tts like mentioned in the second stanza or smthing) oh and how ive taken so many risks and chances in my secondary sch life.it also mentions smthing abt how sometimes goodbye is so hard just like mrs tian leaving ld and us leaving ld and cassandra and all but we just had to move on and treasure the memories that was left behind. make our dreams, take a chance and pave our life.im feeling so old tt i think i shld go coffin shopping soon. hahas. oh my gosh this song is like a beautiful summary of my secondary school life,such a beautiful way to close this great chapter of my life.
or maybe im just a little girl entertaining her silly fantasies
Kelly Clarkson-break away
Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.
Try not to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,I could break away.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Faraway, and break away.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Buildings with a 100 floors,
Swinging aroundrevolving doors,
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me.
But I gotta keep moving on moving on,
Fly away, break away.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
Tho its not easy to tell you goodbye.
Gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget the place I come from.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Break away, break away
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